Contemplation

I'm sitting here at Plank Coffee in Cloverdale, California having just left my dying patients beautiful peaceful home where his wife, with so much grace awaits the inevitable. My heart breaks at times at the pain of loss, it's beauty and the sheer living hell and grossness that can come, sometimes, with dying as we move slowly toward what may be next. 

As I move through this oh so gorgeous country, listening to my most loved Hawaiian music anchors me to my own past and winds together with homesickness of my past and memories of the people that have made me and are making me who I am. I'm doing good work these past years, blessed work, at least for me and this choice still resonates with me to this very moment.