Driving from the ridge on Skaggs Springs Road. Beautiful sunset, music and many thoughts. Remembering the past and then remembering how it felt to anticipate the future. Feeling that frisson of lovely optimistic passion run down my spine knowing that I was at the beginning, the beginning of a life and that it was all spread out there before me - waiting,waiting,waiting. I treasured that unknowing and recognized it even then. I still long for the unknown and the attendant excitement.  Ties to our lives and the community are so rewarding but at times I tired of the comforting embrace of all that is so knowable. I live a passionate and rewarding life that has its share of excitement, danger, peace and incredible beauty. I am a fortunate man.  Yet for me there lingers, and always will, that certain sense of much yet to be done, so much still undone. And yes, I embrace, long for it because it is still waiting, waiting, waiting. I will not die without having done so much more then I thought I was capable of.