I think we all wonder at times about if what we write will withstand the test of time. Obviously, some people don't give a damn at all. I find myself somewhere inbetween. I wonder, but in the end am fairly sure of the triumph of meaninglessness over much of what we humans do. Depending on my mood, very sure of it in my own case! Isn't a journal or a BLOG inveterate narcissism? I think so . . . .

I had my interview last week with U.C. Davis for the Physician Assistant program. It went well and I interview well. Still, competition is fierce and I may not get in. I still feel deep in my soul that much of my short life has led me up to this point. The point of being able to apply, the chance to earn a decent living in an honourable profession that I feel passionate about. Medicine can be a profession that can either really help you, be of marginal use (until you are sick!) or end up killing you. Still, the commitment is fierce and I endeavour to have purpose, to contribute, to find meaning in a life.

I will receive an answer by February 1 2003. I hope that whoever reads this, someday, will or has found something to be passionate about in thier life, that you are making some kind of contribution to the world. Ethical or moral imperatives? Yes, there are, at least for me.