Aloha,
Called a group named the good Samaritans today, basically a group of flyers and docs who go down to Baja Mexico and do medical work on the weekends. Personally I think it sounds great unless you crash and burn which could screw up anybody's day once you get down to it. Still, the chance to do some medicine, eat good food and maybe see some warm water for once? Yeah, let me at it baby.
So U.C. Davis saw fit to reject my application to the Physican Assistant program for this year. A small entering class and another 40% cut on top of that (Thank you Governor Gray Davis and the Senators and Assemblypeople of the State of California. This may just get me mad enough to run for State office someday so I can put my big mouth on the bloody line instead of just shooting it off. At any rate, the alternate (note the decided nonuse of the word, 'backup'!) plan is a Bachelor of Science in Nursing. I am working on the application now. If the university gets it together and thebudget is available there may be an accelerated Masters of Science in Nursing I could get through in one year.
Meanwhile I hate the Northern California winter and the incredibly wishy washy new age crap that gets espoused here. I did not understand when I was at UCLA. Now, thank god after years out of the country, I now know and understand. These people are so incredibly spoiled they have the time to indulge themselves in a frenzy of intellectural and spiritual masturbation. Hell, I am guilty of it too, look upon these pages those who doubt my words! My hope is I will actually DO something about it like I have in the past.
I still mourn leaving Hawaii. Being here for my dad as he lay dying was good, the right thing to do but I left Hawai'i so fast. I miss my home. For me it was home and I still feel no kinship with this place. My whole life has always been moving in some way but Hawai'i . . . despite its problems and dominance by the Haoles (people looking like me brah!) is still a wonderful, warm, deeply spiritual (not the Northern California fake spirituality crap), welcoming place (as long as you are sensitive that the white folks have no business being there and need to shut up and act like the guest they are!
It is late and I am about to lapse into incoherency once again. I long for the islands, not just Hawaii but Fiji, Tonga, Rarotonga and on. I remain in America because of an incredibly loving, beautiful woman and her incredibly beautiful and loving daughter.
I had something deemed hurtful, insensitive and offensive here so this last paragraph was edited for content.
Malama pono, a hui hou. Moce mada, dua na siqa.
Tevita, Kawika, David
20.2.03
3.2.03
Aloha . . .
People who want to make a difference should get smaller dwellings, ship excess materials like the
gold chandeliers to the 'poor starving people' overseas so they can at least have better lighting while
they slowly expire from AIDS, a lack of clean water, lack of clean food and a lack of caring by the
rest of the world. I look in the mirror every day (well, at least a few times a week) and think to
myself, Ok pal, what the ______ are you doing besides whining like a jerk? The answer is
not goddamn much at all.
So when I get done with school, if I don't just get overseas again (and I hope to god
somehow and someday I will!), if I buy a car I will get a hybrid or at least a four cylinder, I
will try to not own as much stuff, I will convert a house (if I ever own one) to solar and
have it feed back into the grid and whatever else I can.
Yo! Where did all that spring from! Sorry to rant and rave but this huge deal about
seven dead people pisses me off! I honor them but wonder about the thousands dying
every day because of people like me. The Columbia astronauts knew the danger, they
would not call themselves heros but simply people doing the job they were trained for.
Firefighters are not heros. They do thier job as told and as trained to do whether we
are volunteers or paid. In the Emergency Department we do our jobs to the
best of our ability.
We should mourn those who die because of our inaction, we should not only mourn
but take mindful action with great purpose and direction aimed at alleviating suffering
and injustice no matter where it resides.
Remember, self hatred is good . . . to an extent.
People who want to make a difference should get smaller dwellings, ship excess materials like the
gold chandeliers to the 'poor starving people' overseas so they can at least have better lighting while
they slowly expire from AIDS, a lack of clean water, lack of clean food and a lack of caring by the
rest of the world. I look in the mirror every day (well, at least a few times a week) and think to
myself, Ok pal, what the ______ are you doing besides whining like a jerk? The answer is
not goddamn much at all.
So when I get done with school, if I don't just get overseas again (and I hope to god
somehow and someday I will!), if I buy a car I will get a hybrid or at least a four cylinder, I
will try to not own as much stuff, I will convert a house (if I ever own one) to solar and
have it feed back into the grid and whatever else I can.
Yo! Where did all that spring from! Sorry to rant and rave but this huge deal about
seven dead people pisses me off! I honor them but wonder about the thousands dying
every day because of people like me. The Columbia astronauts knew the danger, they
would not call themselves heros but simply people doing the job they were trained for.
Firefighters are not heros. They do thier job as told and as trained to do whether we
are volunteers or paid. In the Emergency Department we do our jobs to the
best of our ability.
We should mourn those who die because of our inaction, we should not only mourn
but take mindful action with great purpose and direction aimed at alleviating suffering
and injustice no matter where it resides.
Remember, self hatred is good . . . to an extent.
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